Baby Blue Eyes

Monday, January 30, 2017

These outfits aren't very exciting (aside from the fact that Coco and I match, which is all the goals), but I loved how the pictures came out and perfectly captured my little girl's happy spirit. I hope that by the time she is making solid memories Trump and his shameful administration are long gone and the US can once again be led by someone I am proud to call my president. I am so happy that in CJ's baby book it says she was born with Obama in charge. What do we tell our kids about the shameful decisions our country has made? How do I keep her cheerful, loving disposition when so many have made it clear that they prefer hate? How do I protect her from men when it is being made increasingly clear that women's rights don't matter? And how do I make sure she knows to stand against violence, racism, xenophobia, and the current administration's lies? These are things weighing constantly on my mind lately. However, having a baby girl also gives me ever more reasons to fight, stand with POC, check my privilege, and be strong. We must all be strong.







::ME::
GIFTED VEST :: OLD NAVY TOP :: MARSHALLS PANTS & BOOTS :: FAWN DESIGN DIAPER BAG :: MAC LIPSTICK IN SO CHAUD
::COCO::
OLD NAVY ONESIE, CARDIGAN, & LEGGINGS :: CARTER'S SOCKS :: LITTLE POPPY CO BOW


I am a soft person. I am always slow to object, slow to stand up, and slow to speak out when it involves myself. I repeatedly feel like a failure when a stranger crosses boundaries with Coco and I am so shocked I don't respond, or feel it's too late to respond after the initial shock has worn off. My worst moment was when the lady at the Post Office (who was holding my package hostage) reached over to Coco, who was against me in a sling, and pulled her pacifier out to see her smile. I was so baffled I didn't register the audacity of the action until it was over, and then I was (rightly) outraged. I am struggling with finding my footing in wanting Coco to see the world as an amazing, beautiful place, while also still impressing upon her the importance of standing up for yourself, saying no, and speaking out. As women we are told we are only valuable when we are quiet. If we are angry, we are flustered and not taken seriously. I have so many things to still unlearn, while simultaneously trying to ingrain all the right things within Coco. Motherhood is complicated. In the end, I can only do my best and hope that CJ finds her own footing within this complicated world.

Scroll for a hilarious photo of me pretending to see whatever CJ was staring at.


2 comments:

  1. Ooo I don't blame you for fuming over the post office lady - BACK AWAY! We've talked about delayed reactions before, they still bother me. Something happens and you're so taken aback you can't register it in time to actually respond the way you want - OOOOOOO it bothers me so much! Haha it happens to the best of us!

    All that aside, you are truly glowing whenever you have Coco in your photos. I like it. =D

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  2. Seriously? Pulling out a pacifier?! To see her smile? That lady could of easily gotten a screaming baby instead.

    I had the same thought about the current president with my baby. He was born in December and just thinking "phew, I can at least tell him that Obama was president" I joked for awhile that my baby kept accidentally giving the middle finger because all my election rage transfered to him in utero.

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