Stop This Train

Friday, August 7, 2015

Some of life's decisions wait for you to make them. Some of them make themselves, no matter how hard you try to avoid them. You can see the light at the end of the tunnel from miles away, hear the blaring shriek of the train's whistle, yet they still smack you straight in the face and run you right over. The breakup was like this. I knew it was coming. We both knew it was coming. We both denied it until the very end. And that's ok. I hate the thought of being bitter, because that's no way to deal with things. I guess the weirdest part for me right now is that I am ok. I'm doing fine and that makes me feel guilty in some weird way. I had mentally prepared for this for awhile, and while I still get waves of sadness, I'm really ok. Being ok makes me feel bad. Does that make sense?






::PHOTOS BY M::
MACY'S TOP :: FOREVER 21 SHORTS :: URBAN OUTFITTERS SUNNIES :: SHOES C/O NOT RATED :: MAC LIPSTICK IN HUE

I really want to thank each and every one of you for all your support and love regarding my last post. It really meant the entire world to me that so many of you offered up your comfort and warm fuzzies. I guess I'm just working on embracing this new version of single me. Honestly, part of me is really excited to reconnect with friends and figure out who I am outside of a couple. Today I'm feeling really good. Things will always be ok. I have always held to the thought that all relationships lead you to the person you are meant to be and be with. I absolutely love the person I am now, and I know I have Michael to thank for a lot of that. We grew so much together. I'm pleased that at the end of the day we made the conscious decision to keep what we had beautiful, instead of beating it out until it grew cold and bitter. The sun is shining and things are looking up.

6 comments:

  1. So glad you're doing okay! Breakups can really suck. It sounds like you're handing everything well though.
    In happier news, the lighting in these pictures is just gorgeous and you look wonderful in this yellow eyelet top.

    Jamie | PetitePanoply.com

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    1. Thank you so much Jamie!
      The lighting in these pictures was definitely the dream. Not something I can achieve often, so I was pretty happy with it! Thank you always for your support.
      ♡Mariah Alysz

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  2. I can relate - don't feel guilty for being OK. It changes everyday but I think you know why you are OK - you spent more time than you are aware of preparing for this. I had a similar end to a relationship where I had actually grieved and missed our relationship months before we finally broke up. Because of this, when we split, I only felt relief and empowerment. I felt like a monster, knowing he was hurting and I was fine. But in the end, I did the right thing, and I was able to grow and move on.

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    1. Sara! Yes! Mentally preparing for a breakup way before it happens is always such a strange thing to deal with. Growth is always the most important thing though. Thank you so much for always being so beautifully open.
      ♡Mariah Alysz

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  3. I'm sorry that things didn't work out, but I'm glad that you are doing ok and that you guys didn't end bitterly. In time you will probably be able to be friends, if you aren't already. By the way, these photos are gorgeous.

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